Yesterday's lesson hit me very hard. It brought up something that I've spent a good portion of my life doing, and these words really hit home for me:
Physical change alone will never truly give you a fresh start.
That was very hard for me to grasp, but very necessary for me to hear. It's not that I've made many moves in my life, but the moves I have made all came with the intent of having a fresh start. The first move was from home to college, a traditional move for a fresh start to independence that most people go through. Whether that move be to college, to a new job, or just out of their parents house, most people have the initial move towards independence. After college, I moved to a different city, ready to begin my professional life. When things weren't going as I had hoped, both personally and professionally, I moved to a different state and changed career paths. When my life got turned upside down and I became a single parent, I moved again, closer to home, but across the state border from it.
Each of these moves was me trying to start over and recreate myself to be a better version of the person I was in the last place. Sometimes the version wasn't so much better, but different, but the goal was the same. The goal was to start over where nobody knew my past, nobody could judge me from my past, and I could become the person I wanted to be. But that doesn't come with just a change of scenery. Ezekiel 36:26-27 says, "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws."
This book pointed out (very loudly) that the three things I've been moving to find, Christ can offer me: (1) a new beginning, (2) a new standing, and (3) a new future. Wow. What a hard hitting point. Thanks, Wendy! It turns out that I don't need to keep moving to find what I want. As Bon Jovi would say, who says you can't go home?
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